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My maternal grandmother has a cancerous tumor. In her pancreas. We just found out at 9:30 last night.
She showed signs of serious illness on Friday, and she was taken to the hospital yesterday morning.
Mom started to cry. Allie went into hysterics and bawled her eyes out for the next two hours.
Me? I didn't know WHAT to say or do. I just stood there with my face in my hands. I stood like that for a long time.
Thing is, how the hell was Mom so calm while calling the rest of the family about this?
The worst part? My grandma was halfway across the goddamn country, in Oklahoma, on 4th of July weekend. Thankfully, her brother got her on a 7 AM flight to Newark, NJ. My aunt picked her up and took her to the hospital.
As I type this, Mom, Grandpa, and my aunt are with my grandma in the hospital. I don't know when I'm allowed to see her…
I didn't get much sleep last night, I can tell you that. And the little sleep I did get was plagued with more surreal nightmares, which involved:
Disembodied kidneys in a freezer bag, myself getting run over by a car multiple times, a haunted poster turning into some sort of Eldritch Abomination and killing anyone who went near it, a thunderstorm, psychotic clowns, and a hospital patient shooting all of her visitors due to a mental breakdown.
Jesus…
Listen, can you do me a favor and pray for my grandma if you believe in some sort of deity? The only thing I can do is hope.
She showed signs of serious illness on Friday, and she was taken to the hospital yesterday morning.
Mom started to cry. Allie went into hysterics and bawled her eyes out for the next two hours.
Me? I didn't know WHAT to say or do. I just stood there with my face in my hands. I stood like that for a long time.
Thing is, how the hell was Mom so calm while calling the rest of the family about this?
The worst part? My grandma was halfway across the goddamn country, in Oklahoma, on 4th of July weekend. Thankfully, her brother got her on a 7 AM flight to Newark, NJ. My aunt picked her up and took her to the hospital.
As I type this, Mom, Grandpa, and my aunt are with my grandma in the hospital. I don't know when I'm allowed to see her…
I didn't get much sleep last night, I can tell you that. And the little sleep I did get was plagued with more surreal nightmares, which involved:
Disembodied kidneys in a freezer bag, myself getting run over by a car multiple times, a haunted poster turning into some sort of Eldritch Abomination and killing anyone who went near it, a thunderstorm, psychotic clowns, and a hospital patient shooting all of her visitors due to a mental breakdown.
Jesus…
Listen, can you do me a favor and pray for my grandma if you believe in some sort of deity? The only thing I can do is hope.
I might as well update this
People rarely read these even when DA didn't have all these annoying unnecessary changes to it. I barely look at the DA front pages due to the surge of AI-generated plagiarism over the course of 2023. I hope this crap goes the embarrassing way of the NFT Apes. When I first came to DA in December 2006, I was full of optimism. Now, I'm full of regrets and embarrassment. There were a lot of genuinely rotten depraved people that I wish I never interacted with. I made tons of comments that I regret, too. I wish I can take it all back, what awful baggage. Getting into the Hetalia series was one of my bigger regrets. The fandom had some vile scumbags in it. ...Russia invaded Ukraine, happy now, you sadistic fuckers?! I don't want to know what those monsters have to say about Israel massacring Palestinian people again. And God help you if you denounce racism and sexism on here- people were evil as hell about it years ago. I'm sure that it's much worse now. At least I never got covid-19
this site is so broken
I can't see large images, everything loads at a snail's pace. I tried to make a comment on a drawing, but the screen kept freezing so I didn't bother. The layouts are so cumbersome & redundant. This site used to be so much better... back in the late 2000s.
I'm still alive, not very active on here
I'm just not active on here because this community seems to have been a dead zone for years. *sigh* Nobody even wants to talk about fun things. I can't remember the last time I logged in. I look at my notifications and they're slower and more cumbersome than ever before. I can't save pictures as well as I used to, either. What to do... And I was so right about there being a lot of evil in the world. I wish I was wrong.
Finally, my inbox is down to 56
At long last. I chipped away at it for the last 5 days, despite Eclipse being obnoxiously slow and clunky on purpose. Perhaps I can keep it manageable if I log in once a week or so. It was nice just looking at art during that time. I also looked at a lot of recent Crash Bandicoot art and I felt like a teenager again. Crash Bandicoot 4: It's About Time is such a good game, by the way. Also, Happy Twin Peaks Day.
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youre grandma's in my prayers! I really hope everything comes out okay!!!